Changes and us

Things that we find important change all the time. Sometimes, it takes us years to change our preferences, sometimes, we do it in moments.  This year has been the year of moments.

We like to live in the moment, but we don't want to make decisions in the moment. We now how it works-- because you want to leave it to the future us, because we don't want to think, to compromise, and to take up hard choices. So we delay, we don't try to change ourselves, and when we finally evolved, it's a result of years of hard work and small changes.

But there are moments that change you forever. You'd think they would be big moments-- the fall of Soviet Russia, the death or loss of a loved one, and so one. And you'd be right, for the most part. But there are moments that are otherwise not significant at all, except for that you decide to make those moments important. You choose-- unconsciously-- to make them important. You don't know why you did that-- perhaps it's the prejudices and the stupidity in you that makes you designate such moments, or perhaps events of some higher order. You can never tell, but happen, they do. You realize things have changed, and you feel the change in every moment. It's not luurve I'm talking about, so it might be a good idea for you to stop covering your ears and shouting loudly.

And then you change. Imperceptibly and first, but slowly those changes start having larger implications in your overall personality, and people start noticing the difference. And as the change grows more permanent, it becomes a part of your personality. The change becomes you-- in other words, you become another person.

We like what we are, generally. But we want more. We aspire to be someone whom we aspire to be, and the aspirations are manifested in our behavior. A slight wink, an imperceptible bow--that's all you need to know about a person to figure out that the person you knew is not the same person anymore.

Change is not always good. Change can be fore  the bad, and you can change for the worse. We've seen how things like that work out-- a cousin, neighbour perhaps-- who showed so much potential, and then went crazy. It's funny how people change. You don't know what is the cause, and what the effect is. That's how it works.