No getting back

She didn't need rubble of the past to block her ride into the wonderful future she had imagined for herself. There was nothing that could stop her from gaining peace and sanity, none of those no-good guys who'd only caused her pain and suffering. No, this was going to be her riding into the sunset all by herself if it came to that happy content and excited about everything that was about to happen. A stupid text from a stupid person at a critical time when she was to shape the rest of her life was not something that would distract her from the prize. No more distractions, no more scrubs, no more of wasting time with idiots that got her nowhere. This was it.

On the other hand. No, there was no other hand, she didn't care, this was real. She was making the jump, she was moving and they wouldn't be able to change her mind no matter what. And particularly not one of those people nuh uhh she knew better she had learned her lesson she was mature now. If life had taught her anything it was that other people -- well these kind anyway -- were only dragging her down, when she was free as a bird left to fly on her own she could fly to the sun and and eat it if that was what she wanted. These good-for-nothings, they were luggage, heavy heavy luggage and she was a busy go-getter a frequent flier who didn't need to check-in all that heavy buckets of crap into every flight she took. She thought that was what she needed but she had done fine, she was an able independent woman and they were absolutely drab dumb fools. Nothing to give back, only sucked all the excitement and energy from her.

Little children they were, oh yes. This guy particularly, with all the love and caring he needed, it was a wonder how he hadn't swallowed like a thousand pens already. Such a fool, such a fool. He would have been an unemployed useless idiot had it not been for her, looking out for his internship opportunities and then jobs in the city. He had to be convinced to go to that goddamn wall-street job that made him sackloads of money! She had done it, she had babied him, nagged him, convinced him, whatever you say, she had made him get that job, he had had a good time, saved a tonne of money, goddamn started his own little company once he was done with it, and it was all because of her. Well not the company itself, but he admitted openly that it was the pain of their separation that made him quit his job and distract himself with something useful. Which was a handmade chocolate company. He'd been doing really well actually. Given her a little share of the company, originally as a joke and then formalized later when the temperatures had warmed up a little. Give then a finger and they try taking an arm. Now he wanted to be back or whatever. Wanted to visit her and all of that bullshit. She had told him, in no uncertain terms they were not going to sleep she was not going to date him, and they were just friends at best. And minor business partners, and if he tried leveraging their business relationship for anything else, they were done for good, she'd sell it or give it away for nothing and never ever talk to him again. Ever. Yeah he promised there was no expectation of hanky panky, and she said that it's not about expectation it's about what's going to happen and there's nothing happening ever, and he said yeah right of course sure but she didn't trust him. They had been friends before. And that's how they had started to begin with. With absolutely no interest in each other and it had been a six-year long swamp. It was over now, she was happier all by herself and his desperate pathetic attempts at getting back wouldn't work. Not at all, not again.