It only gets harder

 It only gets harder the more I skip, the more I get lazy, the more I push this on. I need to write so much more, I'm hanging by a thread, barely surviving in terms of my goal to write here daily. There has to be a point after which the brain will just give up, and I'm getting there very very soon if I don't follow rules. The advice is, it gets easier, but you have to keep at it, every day, every week, one small act at a time. And not, as I'm doing, writing whenever the heck I feel like it, pretending I'm managing to go with a regular schedule. This won't get easy if I don't follow the rules. Rituals are important. Discipline is important.