Workstuff

 I don't like talking about workstuff around here for a multitude of reasons, the most important being that in the future this will surely be completely public and everybody will be able to find themselves in these paragraphs. And also I don't like to bring work home, yadda yadda yadda. But things have been going extraordinarily slow at work and it's gotten a bit annoying, a lottt annoying, since I feel like I'm not doing much, and being spread thin between priorities, there's no clearly set priorities, deadlines or deliverables so I don't know for sure what I'm to do and who I'm to look out to. It's a whole lotta mess, I'm telling you, and I'm not in a position to help anybody out because I can't focus. I took the day off last Thursday to catch up on sleep and just chill but I'm thinking I'll need a lot more of that if I'm to truly recharge and be excited about the work again. I really do want to grow, help my teammates out and do real well, but a ship without a captain at the sea without a lighthouse's guidance will hit the rocks. It ain't a place for an uncaptained sea. And that's where it feels like I'm at.

It's possible I might be able to take this opportunity to uhh make horizontal changes in my work situation, do more planning and less technical stuff because the technical stuff feels a bit boring sometimes. Sometimes I feel like maybe I wasn't meant to be doing technical stuff for a job, I was meant to be talking to people and strategizing and planning and organizing while being a hundred percent aware of the actual technical work. And I could go down into the ditches and fight with the soldiers if it came to that, but that wouldn't be my primary function. That's now how it has panned out to this point, so I borrowed a book from the Library that's about being a product manager or owner, never can tell the difference. If I can somehow make that jump I'll be a happy cucumber, specially if I do it without taking a pay dump.