Movie party with extended roommate friends [Sunday 26]

It's 1 minute to 12 am, I haven't done a lot today, so here we go in short on things that I did today. The summary is: not much.

Got up late in the morning because talked to PA for 4 maybe 5 hours on the phone. We've been talking for real long on the phone recently and it's always a good sign if you're talking to people on the phone for real long, but some people disagree with that assessment and I can't really get behind that.

Got out of the bed at 9-ish, wrote some posts, made lunch of eggs, potatoes, kimchi tacos cooked in bacon fat it was so disgustingly good and filling that my arteries were contracting consciously and it felt so gooood. Read a lot, wrote a lot during the day, but mostly wasted time reading blogs and on youtube. In the evening, semi-roommate I and his roommate L (I think) came over because their apartment is completely made unlivable by soot. Watched parasite, kill bill, among other movies, even though I should have been working otherwise. The lack of proper sleep and eating too much is definitely taking its toll on me, it's not clear what I can do about it. Didn't do any of the workouts either until the evening when I did lots of pushups. Planning to read the book now, and complete most of the checklists things before going to bed. Haven't written a letter in many days, but there's reasons for that, I don't know if I want to keep doing that etcetera, we'll see.

Watched someone play some stupid youtube game for hours, wasted hours on random newssites that should not be perused anymore because it's just an information addiction I thought I'd gotten over but apparently not. They're the reason I'm ashamed about my emotional health and information-addiction situation because I just can't let them go. Also talked to JD on the phone, she's in Nepal. Tried contacting a bunch of people on the phone too but we kept missing each other, that's somewhat of a bummer such is life.

And then started doing the workouts and writing these blog posts in a row. Which was at 11 in the evening I think. So on the good side, at least some workouts and disciplined activities were done. ON the bad site, nothing productive was done generally, and I got carried away by fantastic tendencies. One wonders if there's been any learning, disciplining and growing up that's happened in the past several months or if it's just the habit that's keeping me running, which if it collapses for some stupid reason or another, I'm back to being a puddle of sadness desperation uselessness and hopelessness.

Finally, these things make me realize I need to come up with a better, more suitable checklist for my journey so I may be able to keep to my time-table during all the traveling, fun-having with family, and then staying comfortably like a loser who depends entirely on their family in Nepal. I don't mind, but I'd like to start taking the steps to becoming my own man, a grown-up person who can take care of himself and isn't a child needing to be taken care of.

Anyways that's it, I need to start writing stuff at work too, hasn't happened because we've been so busy lately. Need to get up early in the morning tomorrow and walk all the way to davis. Goodnight folks, and toodles.