Fearing the future is no fun

I was afraid of seeing people, breaking up and getting my heart broken all the time, oh my poor poor heart I thought,
but to what end?
do people not date hoping to avoid a break and living in full awareness it will likely happen and that love and dedication,
is worth it all?
what is there to fear?
What poor pathetic child of a heart am I saving? To go to Nepal, twice or thrice a year,
to see someone I might hold dear
at that moment in time in particular,
is is really such a big bad pain,
and so what that each person might be different whom I might never see again?
Is love by itself, and affection, not sufficient?
If I have not lied and cheated and made fools of folks, such that my heart is pure, made of gold,
then is it on me that things don't work out,
or is it destiny?
One thing is for sure, as friends and family say, that I must remain true to myself, just be me, not change myself for sake of some company, if things work out that is a thing to behold, and if not, love is all. one needs,
oh and the glorious stories to be told 1 Fearing the future, then, is no fun at all no point in crying over the milk that's yet to fall Trust thyself and be faithful things will be fine, Oh what a wild ride I've gotten myself into!