Actually I'm better at things than I give myself credit for?

I wrote about this before, and I've been writing about this in greater detail for the essays the editor and I are developing together. The idea is basically this: I thought I was so very bad at belly dancing. Like, in my mind I was one of the worst people on the planet. Same with yoga, one figured I would be incredibly inflexible, just terrible. Same with art too, I figured I'd take the class for years and years, and in the end my teacher would exclaim in desperation that she can't do anything for me, I'll never learn anything or amount to anything.

But none of that has been true! Like I'm quite decent at dancing, seeing as how little experience I have with organized practice. And the art stuff I'm not substantially more awful than other people. Plus I've been improving, and learning, and trying harder to just learn. It's not about where you are right now, it's about where you want to be, and what the vision is for getting there? I have a path towards my destination, and a vision I have for myself and that appears to be more important than how awful I am. Which again, I'm not too far gone in the awfulness area.

I should give myself more credit for my success. Even for this blog, I like to pretend being unmotivated, uncreative, a hack, a lazy bum for not posting over the weekends. And it's true, the writing here often becomes too much of a chore. But it's not fundamentally my error, it's just that I don't give myself enough time to write? Like if I was writing every day for an hour, that wouldn't be an issue at all. So it's not that I'm a poor writer, or I'm lazy, it's that on some days I'm valuing 4 hours of afternoon naps (ugh, don't ask) or reading up on mastodon higher than writing and becoming a better person. It's alright, if that's what my goal is.

The important part is to completely understand who I want to become, and see how my actions are shaping my destiny. Napping at weird hours of the day gets me to one direction, which if it does not, I need to change my daily timetable. That's just facts, rat-a-tat!