So late and haven't written, sigh

 I haven't written much, and it's very, very late. What is going on, what the hell is wrong? Is it me, or has the passion gone? Why must I write? What is the way, what is the goal? Should I keep doing it even if I'm in a creative hole? Am I improving, really, or is it a pointless exercise? Where is the way, where do I go, and what do I do? Making excuses, reading up on news, and just escaping my passion. Perhaps writing isn't my guiding star? Must I write, all the time? Or should I give up this hobby of mine? What am I good for, where do I go? What is the goal in life, what the hell to do? Who do I reach out to, where are the cuties at? Is this all a distraction, until a partner's been met? Or perhaps we're creating a great palace of our dreams, collecting skills from all the aspects of life...