Life, change and living

Laugh at me,
laugh at me
as if
I were a clown
a goddamn monkey
dancing around,
for what's left
anyway
of my dignity
and self-respect
I'm willing
to compromise
it all
away.
not that it matters
to me.
how is it,
asked a friend
from the land
of Germany,
that you are now
all so set
to settle down
when just very...then...
you weren't?
My answer,
humiliating
and brutally true
was a simple,
I'm not
the same
person
anymore,
and my priorities
have changed.

So.
What now?
Where from here?
the old me would have thought.

The current me
would rather think
let's
keep on
living
one day
at a time
and
love
love
love.