I'm writing this three days after the fact, and I may have very vague recollections of the day due to the fact that I don't have too many distinctive memories, or photos from this day. Truth be told, this type of day is why I maintain this rather tedious journal, to remember the days that weren't worth anything but were still valuable in my learning, they helped me grow as a person.
What I do remember is that I cleaned the room real good, to clear my head of all the confusion and mess and disorganization, and that it was so very tiring, decided to take the following day off.
The morning was rainy and dark, I see from the photos, and none of the boys went on a walk due to that. I too skipped the walk.
I ate peanut-butter-and fluff sammich for lunch because there wasn't much around I was bored and tired and annoyed of everything happening in life. It's sad that the lowest of the lowest I think I've gone is what many people have for their everyday lunch, the 'brown-bag lunch' of fluffernutter. Realized that eating something, anything really is a thousand a billion times better than eating nothing because mood things, food really helps improve your mood so much. Specially when there's no one around. And with the dangerous cocktail of little social contact, little sleep and little food, a regular human person can become a bomb, ready to explode. Honestly that's something the world needs to be wary about and worry for a lot. Like how can things get so...explody so fast, etcetera.
In the evening I went on a walk to Trader Joe's at assembly, talked to but mostly smiled at two of the cutest people I've interacted with in recent times. Not really a big deal because haven't talked to many new people at all, still something that made me happy. It was full moon so the photos I took of the new casino and the moon and the lights were amazing.
Had to stay in the line or 15 minutes to get in, spent 20 minutes in there. Don't know if I planned it or it just happened thanks to fate but the ethiopian girl and her friend and I went in at the same time and got out together. Has to count for something.
I didn't get too many groceries, just enough for a few days. Barely twenty bucks of supplies. Including two meals worth of frozen Indian food that I hung a lot of hopes on but it was only mediocre. Should have gotten a naan maybe, or lowered my expectations haah.
Got back, had roti and vegetable, a whole lot of TJ's brand cheetos. Wanted to write, should have written but instead I got distracted and kept on watching episode after episode of entourage, despite this being the last day of the month when I should be writing the most. Watched till 1am, felt too bad, and went to sleep. It was wild. I didn't enjoy those goddamn episodes at all either.
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