Having literally such low expectations from yourself

 It's so freeing I tell you.

You can let go of all the things you thought you'd do and wouldn't do because who cares, it's not like it maters anyway. You're open to doing literally anything in the world, and none of your bullshit self opinions will get in the way.

It's an opportunity to re-invent yourself. Maybe you see yourself as a different sort of person, maybe there are other interesting things to be tried, and you're going to be so bad, so very bad at them but who the heck cares, you already are a loser you're not going anywhere anyway. So it doesn't matter. Just do it. Nobody cares, and if they do, so what you're already deep in. It's just so freeing.

Do whatever boring pathetic thing you want, or the outrageously exciting, that doesn't define you, you're not disappointing or embarrassing yourself. There's nothing in there in any case, you're an empty husk of matter, without any substance. Nobody cares, you don't anyway. Go ahead with life. Live it one moment at a time, one day at a time.

You do you!