News from Nepal

News from Nepal gets stupider by the hour. And you'll say fine whatever but whatabout the orange loser, or maybe it's not the worst, but then you think about things. You think that the man, who's the effing leader of a country, a sane man, not a person who is in dire need of medical attention, will literally say anything whatever comes into his tinny head without giving it a moment of consideration about what the impact might be. It might be that he knows he's a clown and no one takes him, or should take him seriously. Maybe he wants to be a clown, and desperately desires to make a fool out of himself so he may act clownish more freely...while acting as the effing ruler of a country. Maybe it's an act, a performance piece, to show the pointlessness of it all, all your institutions and logarithms and what not, in the end an insensible man can bring it all crashing down. Or maybe it's all ego, pure hot foaming pile of hot shit ego, the ego that makes one thing he's the greatest man in every field conceivable, that his words reek of wisdom no matter what they are backed by. Maybe he actually believes the words, he could be delusional. Or delusional in a different way, that he believes what he says will come true, eventually, and therefore what he says is as good as true. I do not understand, I don't care. I do care of course, this is why I write these things. One wishes one didn't care for life is hard and there are so many, way too many things too worry about, and the stupidities of one's prime minister on a daily basis should not be one of them, but here we are. Here. We. Are.

Here we are. Every day it's something new, a new act of gross stupidity or incompetence. That happens everywhere, look at America, they'll say. I fail to understand the argument it's making, terrible things are happening here. Because often it's those who pretend not to approve of the U.S's dealings in world affairs. You cannot claim the public toilet is a dirty shithole, and then point to it when someone points out that your toilet is a stinkin flamin' mess. It's nonsensical. The claim has to be, look at that place the greatest place ever if they can mess up like that so can we. And that's an argument. A stupid argument, but a coherent one, one that can be properly countered. That's besides the point, let us not meander. The point is, you think this is as low as things will go, they can possibly not do anything more stupid and corrupt and the next day you hear a government minister or some second-rate politician one that up. It's a never ending cycle, Sisyphean stupidity.

Some things are fine, most things are not. There's no one to stop the robbers, it's just bigger robbers who want their cut. And it goes all the way up. The counter to that is, not everyone is a robber, there are fewer robbers now. Fine, whatever. They're looking up flights away from the country right now, towards a place that discourages inconsiderate behavior and stupidity, and rewards an honest hard-day's work. It's not that we're lazy or stupid or old-styled. We've just given up. Just. Given. Up.

It's too much, maaan.

What now?

Institutions institutions institutions, I keep telling people. And they reply, no we need a dictator. And I say, how would a hitler help right now. And they say, oh no not that kind, the kind who's worldview and policies are a total reflection of mine. To which I reply, so you want to be the dictator, you don't want to change the system, you want to become the system, as a person, and aim to change it...somehow. Which is like, the opposite of what I said. I'll build institutions, they'll say. Yes, to bolster you, not for the sake of institution-building itself. The conversation just peters out. There's not much to say here. These are not debates, these are desperate conversations to find threads of hope, any thread, about how something might be going well. And some of us have been through the path so many times, we notice the pitfalls. The oasis is a mirage, hiding a deep deep ravine. You're not going to make it. Will we make it? Will. we?

If bare survival is what we care for, likely. If not, what then? How long can this sustain. The world's changing faster than we can adapt. And we refuse change, absolutely abhor it. If you're not going up, you're effectively going down. And that's the bitter truth.