Appointments and Disappointments [3]

...She had taken the lead then. She would do it again.

So, I want us to go to the uhhh... How do I say...I don't want to play games bullshit around, so I'll just say it is that okay, Yeah so I want us to go to the next level, she said to him.

His eyes bulged like a balloon. You mean you want us to like, date, date? Like boyfriend girlfriend?, he said.

Well...kind of, but no, not exactly, but something similar. You're getting close there, she said, smiling at him.

Ohh my god, you're ready to make out now? I've been thinking about it for so long. Listen, I understand you don't want to like date-date and it's fine because you'll go away next year and I will and who knows what happens after that and we'll be busy all this year and with so many things happening we should be focusing on our lives rather than each other anyway, it's hard with everything. So let's not worry about that. I was just thinking we should at least make out, because that's going somewhere you know and I understand you're nervous and maybe you don't want to commit too much but I promise you I will make it easy for you and -- he said, she interrupted him.

Okay yeah all of that, babe stop, I'll cut it short. I think we should have sex soon. Like find a good place to have sex, at a good time, and go on a holiday or whatever where we won't get caught, and just..do it! No point it delaying it, we know we're gonna get there anyway, so might as well go there fast so we can make more out of it, you know, she said in a single breath, unsure of what she was saying but hoping the tone of her voice conveyed the confidence that she did not have in hear heart.

Ohh wow, I uhhh. That's---that's great. Yeahh, like generally, it's the guyy who says that, haha, and of course I've thought about it a lot...a lottt actually, but not really you know, only in like imaginary form never actually thinking. I mean...I'm not nervous or anything, I have general idea of what to do, and obviously I've uhhh uhh you know generally practiced, and um read up, so I'm like, quite ready for whenever actually uh yeah, let me know whenever, he said, looking at her, a weak smile on his face.

Yeah, you are ready with it right? I don't know the exact details. Listen. You're a sweet guy, and I know if there's anyone I would be comfortable with, it's you. I don't want this to be a stupid drunk thing and we both regret after, you know. And I know I've gone back and forth on being committed or whatever, but I'm lame and confused like that all the time. But wanna do this. You're a good person to do it with I think, she said, going quiet suddenly.

Silence. The pond reflected the full room, illuminating the garden. They stared at the tiny ripples on the water.

He chuckled. This is very exciting. I'll figure it out. I promise you it'll be great. Thank you so much, it's awesome, he said.

She paused. She restrained a sigh. Of course, we're going out and you're a nice person. This will be great, she said. You're welcome, she said, after a brief pause.