Appointments and disappointments

This would be the best time of her life. The most exciting thing she'd ever done.

She was eighteen. Just out of high school. Nothing to do, except 3 hours of tuition class a week teaching a tenth-grader, which she did only for the beer money. The world was her oyster.

He wasn't really her boyfriend. Her real boyfriend would be taller, better skin, more understanding, good dancer. Kind. And rich, hopefully, but that wasn't a hard requirement. It would be an added bonus. Hard, she thought, as her skin shivered all over. She tried thinking of something else.

Her current whatever was a fine guy. He was going to America for college just like her. He wasn't looking to get married or anything, or even a long term thing. The perfect boyfriend. To practice on, before she got a real boyfriend. Not that he was her boyfriend, just a guy she hung out with when she went out with her friends. And to their friends they were boyfriend and girlfriend. Because they wouldn't understand. She was not a rebel. She didn't want controversy around her relationship. The two of them had talked about it, a little. An understanding had been reached. She had realized with great pride how she was beginning to think and talk like a politician.

There is only so many things you can do in Kathmandu. And with each other. They had kissed. A lot. Not hardcore deep-tongue kiss, he said he wanted to be sure they both wanted to do that. Lip on lip, lip on cheeks, lip on nose, lip on forehead, lip on ears, there had been a lot of that. Too much, actually. Too much. Her lips had gone numb from kissing so much. Once she got over the taboo of kissing a guy, she found it pretty tame. The excitement wasn't there anymore, the fear of getting caught and having your life destroyed had gone. If you cut those out, she realized, all that remained was pecking at each other's faces like a pair of birds. No, not lovebirds. Just a pair of friendly birds pecking at each other. It was something, sure, over the poor sops who couldn't even talk to guys and expected a prince to pick them off the ground. Not enough, though. Life had become dull even though she was having a good time.

[a lot of words here, maybe 2000 words? lame experiences of a teenage girl\]

It was the most disappointing thing to have happened to her. The least exciting thing, as things came out to be