Mood etcetera

Sometimes I get super duper gloomy and if I knew what the word felt and meant, perhaps depressed. For no apparent reason. Happens to me a few times a year, and I'm beginning to suspect it's food related. Food, and sleep mostly, and perhaps triggered by minor emotional stuff that's happening all the time in the background that just sets things off. A crappy cocktail, if I may.

The last time it happened, I may have written about it here. I was feeling really bummed out, and I didn't know what was off. I racked my brains trying to figure out what the hell could have been not right but no gusto. This was where I was already sleeping reasonably. I figured it had been triggered by my family leaving for DC [This was in late July] but I was unsure what was off with me fundamentally.

As it happened I was out near Roxbury crossing, and saw a Domino's nearby. Dominos is comfort food to me. It's like a comfortable, a little smelly but in a good way, blanket that swaddles you pats you and maybe even massages you in a good way. So I decided to get the cheesy bread there, with feta and spinach as stuffing. Cheese on cheese on carbs on carbs. I was so sad and glum, I couldn't hold it until I got home so I ate most of it on the nice sitting area outside the Mission Hill mall. It felt. so. good. I finished the rest when I got home in Brookline. Then I wasn't sad anymore. I was happy and it felt I had just gone through an amazing therapy session.

This is up because I'm a little bummed out today. Don't feel like doing anything. It was a little sleep related, so I napped for three hours earlier. But it doesn't feel right still. I had pancakes -- a little overcooked -- and they were fine. Filling, and nothing to complain about. Perhaps my body's craving Domino's again. I don't want to go to work in a bad mood tomorrow so this needs to be fixed tonight, but teaching your body that a 1500-calorie cheese and bread and butter is the way to fix your problems is not a good idea either. We will see. I'm getting hungry.

And yet again I pre-empt my daily journal entries in a separate post instead of a long journal entry.