It's easy option to be an alcoholic and I've considered that in the past.
Regular readers of the blog will know that I don't drink. Except for super duper extraordinary special occasions that barely never ever come anyway. There's a reason for me not drinking though.
When I'm two drinks in, on beer, I feel this sense of calm and connection with the world, a confidence I can only dream of when sober, and a clearheaded sense of purpose that I otherwise don't have in everyday life. And I feel like, wouldn't it be so goddamn great if it were always like this? Always on this high that two drinks get me?
This is scary. Because it means that being an alcoholic is a legitimate option, something I would want to explore, because it feels good and that's the kind of thing I want to do. Doesn't seem right.
Which is why I'd rather not drink. Much more peaceful, boring but decent decision.
I've spent a day writing this post, it's lame, so I'll end here. Later.
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