More navel-gazing on how I want to write fiction, but don't know how to get started

Forgive me as a lot of these posts are on writing and surely there's nothing boring than a writer writing about writing besides a filmmaker moaning about filmmaking but stay with me, we're making progress.

Here's the dealio: I want to write fiction, have always wanted to. Stories, novels, anthologies, what have you, anything that my brain can come up with and the target readership is willing to read. But I haven't been able to. Because of the pressure, of performance, of time, of 'inspiration', and the impossibility of actually being able to commit to writing 100k words on the same damn topic over months and months. Like, how does one even go about doing that! Fiction needs to be written in chunks of connected material, you know one flowing into the next, all creating a large coherent masterpiece that's greater than the sum of its part. I have never ever written connected chunks, the furthest I've gotten is a few pieces from a couple of years ago that kind of referred to each other.

So. Here's the hypothesis. A theory. A question even. Is planning the answer to my dilemma? How would I even find out? The idea is: I plan the shit out of a planned piece of writing, a hundred thousand words divided into thirty chunks, all thirty chunks divided into parts of 600 words each, giving us a total of 180-200 parts. They're writeable, manageable in a matter of 30 minutes to an hour. And all of it carefully preplanned, thought out and organized. In the end, if one is left with a bunch of 600-word writing expectations, with each topic expanded to a couple of hundred words already, it'll be really really hard to avoid completing them. And eventually, we'll have a novel. Of sorts. It'll be bad, oh hella bad. But I'll have a novel, something worth showing to people and talking about, an interesting fact that I'm not ashamed to admit in public. Not that I'm ashamed about other achievements but this will be a specially interesting one.

Here's an idea, a proposal, an alternative to an existing proposal. What if...instead of the madness in March I proposed a couple of posts ago where I would test and try different writing structures, 10 posts a day on this work, what if I plan out and finish a novel through the course of the month instead. And since I've gotten back to writing at work, what if I finish half of it at work, and half of it during my personal time? 2k words at work, 2k words at home. That's like, an hour each of really really bad, awful writing. That gives me 30k words a week. Which means in 2-4 weeks there will be a super duper crappy novel, but a novel nonetheless, that will have come out of it. It sounds alluring, a little bit enticing. Seductive even. Definitely better than the current plan for march madness for sure. And it'll be easy because it'll all be planned out. And the fun part will be in planning! It'll be so much planning that I won't know when planning ended and writing began. But maybe the planning will kill the concept? Maybe the overhead burdens will make it non-viable?

This is such an exciting, interesting, curious topic worth exploring. The chunks don't need to be written chronologically, as long as the planning is done right. I don't need to get the nuances of individuals, and the change in personalities through the course of the book right either. That comes in post-writing. It's editor shit. My job as a writer right now will be do write a long coherent piece.

Fingers crossed. I'm legit excited. But will have to end the phoenix project asap.