It's about the people duhh

 Strange things happen sometimes.

Even in the harshest most meaningless of days, things perk up.

Today was going pretty slow I'm too anxious to finish my hackathon project so I didn't do anything in the morning, had lunch and left the house at 4, missed the bus by 20 seconds. Felt a sudden sense of emptiness. What do I do with my weekends, what is to be done with the weekdays. I don't have anybody to count on to talk to me all the time aka no partner, I don't have anything I'm working towards seriously full time and there is nothing else to look forward to thanks to the pandemic. The empty weekends become a sad reminder of a pointless aimless sad existence that our lives have gotten. I felt sad. I didn't feel like going to haymarket. I thought I'd walk as far as my legs would take me and come back. Because why not, I was already out.

I saw a guy wait for the bus. I decided to wait with him. Nothing else to do, nowhere to go. Looked at flights to Nepal, 1k for a round trip for a nice 2 month trip. Seriously considered it.

Got into the bus, got down at Lechmere, took the shuttle to the North Station and chilled around. Bought 2 bucks worth of ripe plantains and 1 dollar worth of berries. Lots of food it was. Roommate PK texted me RD had invited us for Laxmi Pooja. Sounded like a good idea so went to her place straight from Boston.

Had such a great time, it was amazing, card games were played etcetera. So much socializing. Forgot about the empty existential crisis I had earlier in the day.

Back home at 1am I said it out aloud. OF COURSE IT'S ABOUT PEOPLE. It should have been more obvious to me. My concern was what to do in the empty time. And the answer was hang with people, talk to them, meet them tease them whatever. You don't need to date people to hang with them. It's about the people. It's always about the people.

No man is an island. TO consider otherwise is foolish, rather proudy. Work on the connections, nurse your interactions, spend time in the small talk if nothing else. And if you can and so desire, skip the small talk if that's where it's going. It's alright. It's not about physical things, it's not about you, it's not about abstract goals you have to meet. It's about the people, your relationships with them and them. That is it. That's what makes one happy and content.

That's the secret to life.

Maybe.

Who knows though.