Weekend review, because I'm a little bit stressed to think straight

Whatever, this was a good weekend, all things considered.

Tomorrow's problems are of tomorrow. Nothing to concern myself with today.

I was supposed to do a lot of work this weekend, hackathon stuff. Did none of it. It's been stressful, the last few weeks, and I totally rejected all of the work because I can't think straight. In all honesty it was unreasonable of me to take excess job beyond the daily requirements as if my life wasn't already complicated enough. This weekend has been a total rejection of the 'hectic and stressful life makes a productive person' trope. Don't want, don't care no thank you show yourself out please.

You need to appreciate people, that's important. It's important to know your bounds under social situations. For me...and this is more uncommon...it's important to go against the grain if that's what right even in pleasant situations, if only to provoke critical thinking. Not critical of people, but critical of ideas and the worldviews they represent.

It's been an issue, making new friends has been for me. Everybody after college here. Or anywhere for that matter I'd imagine. Work is not in-person anymore, and we're trapped in our apartments, and dating apps are yuuuck, online socializing is the worst. Is this the death of 'friendship' forever, how do you even know new people anymore. You can't meet in person, you can't meet at work, and it's absurd to make friends 'online'. So strange, these times are.

This weekend I was provoked to be more outgoing and more confident. Does the tail wag the dog? All theories must be seriously considered.

The five maybe six pounds of plantains that I bought and gifted, I hope they got cooked.

Friend N says I'm now coming with 'mottos' for friends every weekend, last month it was 'move fast and break hearts', this time it's 'escalate escalate escalate'. Funny how none of the rules apply for me, but there's another saying for that. Do as I say, not as I do. Rules are for thee and not for me.

Stress and anxiety are not things I should go out in search for, they'll find me. I was supposed to meditate in the evening last night, didn't happen because I was too busy. And tonight, I don't want to. I feel sleepy and afraid and this is the first time I'll be doing it. You need to be in a good state of mind. However things may go, tomorrow's the day to start it.

Speaking of good emotional situation, I'm ready to take on new project. I've been trying to get my projects funded, the Tongba project more specifically. Should I try to get my friends and family to fund my projects? Something to consider...