Turns out there's such a thing as 'overcooking a dish' in 'too many pots' and I did it with my essays...I overworked the dough!

 I know now what went wrong with the essays I 'wrote' for the website. Why it caused me to burnout, and in the end had me spend over two hours, possibly closer to three hours per essay, when if I'd written it straight off, it would have been quite a lot shorter. Here's the reasons.

1. I overthought it. I planned it, I outlined it, I drafted it, I edited it and so on and so forth. The 'thread' of the essay gets lost in the process. Everything else to do with an essay has to be done at once, save perhaps the editing part. One has to 'feel' in pace of the essay, not get distracted with 50 other pieces, and come back to write it, perfect it etcetera. I let it stew for far too long, and it became soggy, strange, and not to my liking. The next time around, I'll spend 10-15 minutes outlining and planning, 45 minutes writing, and 30 minutes editing and perfecting. If I'd done that, I'd have had about 60 solid world-class essay by now instead of llm-assisted shit. LLM is great to bounce ideas against, but not much more.

2. I changed the pots far too many times, and forgot that takes lots of effort, mental energy and time. What does it mean? I outlined it all in notepad, then transferred to chatgpt, then copied over to blogger, then to my website, and it's still not complete yet since I'm writing it now. If I'd just written it all in one place, in the same place for the website, figured shit out from chatgpt there, and written it there, the whole thing would have been completer earlier. Each piece felt disjointed because it was torn apart by each step of the process.

3. Again, I overtrusted the LLM, and didn't have enough confidence in myself. When the chatGPT suggested my writing was contrived and the language poor, it was right, and it did help me rewrite it. I shouldn't have taken that to mean the ai was good at everything and strictly better than me in writing essays. I misunderstood the nature of interaction between man and the machine, and deferred to much to the machine.

4. Too long of a turnaround time. Essays should have a turnaround of days between jotting the idea out, and a finished version. Editing can take more, and it can stew around for other points to come in, but I stretched the crap out of all the essays until they didn't hold as strong of an emotion connection anymore. Need to feel the essays more.