Con man

 A con man, which stands for CONfidence man is a trickster a fraud who commits a fraud or scam with such confidence and pulls it off so well, the victim has no question about their credibility. No scammer could be so confident they think, this has to absolutely be real, etcetera.

It's about the confidence. That's what it's about.

It must be the weather, the fact that I've had my shit together lately or the pandemic something something because I've been feeling like a boss lately, so confident, so sure of the things I want. It's a bit...confusing empowering shocking even sometimes. Plesant, mostly.

Perhaps that means I'm getting old or have gotten old. Remember hearing that about old men, that they have no shame or embarassment. They will hang out in the gym bathrooms all naked, shameless and without a care in the world what they are doing. Just strutting about, out proud and loud. Is that what I've become? Confident because I feel old and carefree, because nothing can go wrong at all, what do I have to lost but the chains that don't bind me at all?

Things to consider. Hopefully more to add on this as things progress.

So much to write, so little actually done, I do feel a little under the pressure, specially the fact I haven't meditated in a very long while. Two days now. I'll be doing it today, but it doesn't sit right, it just...ain't right, you know what I mean?

In any case, I'll be getting things back to order soon, so this is just a 'flagpost' of sorts, about when I realized I was more confident about being myself.