Late getting up, wasted day, minor meditation, disgusting lunch, evening nap, skipping walk, amazing dinner, catchup writing [Tue 22]

 I write this 11.51 of this very day, I've written six posts in the last hour and half including this, two more posts to go and I'm almost caught up. I'm so sick and tired of going lazy for a day and then rushing to catchup the following many days, just need to stick to a nice schedule and produce on command like a monkey, the monkey will produce shit but if the monkey is writing 12 posts in 2 hours, the monkey will produce even crappier shit which doesn't seem likely but alas that's where we are.

I got up at seven snoozed my alarm for 4 times, couldn't go back to sleep because it was bright outside, but nothing to do so just stayed in my bed and wasted my time instead of like, actually meditating. Let me get to that straight away, i skipped serious meditation for the entire day, instead taking one short course and sampling a tonne of other meditation resources online. It's really tough for me to convince I do have the best resource out there for guided meditation which is why everyone's paying such a massive premium, but it's so very true, the app is amazing, well organized and planned, and the mindfulness exercises are really quite well done without injecting too too much religion into it. I need to internalize this and not get too greedy.

Started work at 8.30 ish, barely got something done the entire day, definitely didn't write, what a waste of a very good day, I'm very guilty, I should work harder at work really, I want promotions now, I want my coworkers to bed in awe of me, to impress them and blow everybody's mind, a hard worker, an amazing coworker and a lovely manager. It's not going to go like that if I'm lazy like this. Still so very hard to focus, I should get more in touch with the meditation app and spend more hours practicing focus exercises, even during work hours, because that is of prime importance right now, to improve my work ethic.

Lunch was noodles with a tonne of fixins except I made two massive mistakes. One's that I put like twice or thrice the recommended amount of water so it didn't taste like anything, but the more fatal error I made was not making sure the onion peel was removed well, the plasticy coating of the white onion, and it was literally like eating plastic, had to throw out more than half the bowl with my last addins of furikake. What. A. Waste. A colossal failure. A great disappointment.

Didn't walk in the evening, didn't feel like it, because I napped for like three hours, 4-7, strange dreams really really strange absurd dreams it was confusing but funny haha it was about my friend AB and her twin sister KB, people I hadn't really thought about recently.

Then had the dinner with roomies, their egg curry and rice. Had a lot of rice, overindulged on it, because why not, I was really pissed about the lunch. So full.

Spent the following two hours wasting my time on the bed, I need to get my shit together, reddit will be the death of me, this needs to improve.

10.30 onwards, here I am, writing rushing, done six posts for the day, 2 more to go, and I'll be only 4 posts behind for tomorrow. Just get it done, it shouldn't be a big deal, meee.