I write this a few minutes after the midnight, I should have been done at 9 really but I got distracted by...things, and then got myself involved in a programming project to download Landinsky's book, all of that usual distractions and just like that it was 12. I'm surprised I even had the drive to get this far. For tomorrow I'll write the second version of the 'journal' I did today, the other post I planned to write, probably a couple of 'jestha 19' pieces, among others, and get to 142 asap.
Anyway, this is the stuff I was upto today, in whatever order alright. The headline is a mess, and I'm in a rush to sleep and put things in order, so don't bother me, byee.
I've been writing for the last 30 minutes, as I watch my other laptop the main one download the book about god and spirituality. Before, I was coding and perfecting the code to get it work, and before that, I guess I was looking at landinsky, how all my passwords seem to have been compromised, all those I used from more than five years ago and I absolutely need to setup a password manager asap.
Before that I was talking to N from Philla, NYE plans, visa plans, work healthcare all of that, and how things have been with me. Before that I was wasting my time on random things because I wasn't feeling great. Before that I called SK [VA] and talked to them for a good amount of time. I was bummed out and they were there for me, felt good. I'm afraid about the future, moving to the burbs, settling down and actually...living a boring stable old people middle class life. I love my friends, love my family, love the people I talk to heh heh heh but it seems scary dull and lonely. I've been up and about cities for my entire life, and moving away where nobody outside your room knows you and you need to drive about to see your friends seems really stressful.
That came about because friend-of-the-house I was over, he's back from VT where his family lives, and we were talking about apartments and how one-bedrooms are priced for couples and out of the affordable range for single people. He was saying how he's been looking at a tonne of new places, hasn't found anything new. That led us to all talk about our future plans, and I'd been keeping it 'for april' not really worrying about what I'd need to do, so that stressed me out a bit, which led me to call like seven of my friends to talk. Also talked to JD telling her I'd be there tomorrow, caught up with I, her application is complete and reminded sister to do her apps.
Had dinner with I and the gang before retiring to my chambers. It was rice dal and brussel sprouts made by roomies.
Before seeing I, I was out on a walk, the usual winterhill-broadway-bostonave route. It's under an hour, slight, I could probably do better, but no energy.
Was boiling tea for kombucha before leaving for the walk. Keeping the water out for the night, adding sugar in the morning along with a container of hot water, so that the tea really seeps in.
Also cleaned roommate BB's cooler and disinfected it, using peroxide, rubbing alchohol and disinfectant spray to kill all the germs. Going to air it out tomorrow, and set up the electronics.
Wrote a bunch during the day, meditated, wasted some time. Did a TONNE of work stuff, architecting, learning go and how to use it in my project. I haven't actually implemented implemented anything yet, but I have a really good idea of what to do, hope to do it soon, with a reasonable mindset. Tomorrow I"ll be working on my regular work stuff and not the project I"m hading.
For breakfast/lunch I had oats with peanut-butter, lots of salt, almost a whole pear cut into small deiced pieces, dark brown sugar, cinnamon powder. It was so goddamn good. Cinnamon sugar and brown sugar, with peanut butter and milk is amazing, the added nuts and the fruit just elevated it to another level.
Got up at 9 in the morning, because had trouble sleeping and got up too early and sleep was a little to messed up. Going to sleep now so that doesn't repeat for today, it's 00.20 right now, yikes.
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