You should be punished

 Note: When I wrote the title down, I was flush with content for this one. Due to time, changing circumstances, my absolute rejection of putting myself in a situation that could be vulnerable, and the changing social circumstances, the content I'd produced over two hours is gone, and it would be embarrassing to the utmost degree to ask somebody to send it over to me. So I'll just write some bullshit as a reminder that either I should just write the posts as soon as I write the titles down, or not be too hasty with migrations, or just fuck it and not worry about these things etcetera.

What was your mistake really, what was your mistake?

So you think you should be punished, yeah I agree with it, just tell me what reasons you deserve the punishment for.

Because the choices you made, they were not your choices, the final choices you made were forced, and you know that. You did the things you did for basic survival. Well maybe then the circumstances leading to those situations, maybe you made those mistakes, and deserve punishment for that? Except. You know better than I do that it was not your choice, as much as they wanted you to be convinced it was. Your hand was forced, you didn't know anybetter, and they wanted you to buy into their decisions, aspirations and dream.

What exactly was your mistake then?

At what point did you do wrong?

Have you not done everything they asked of you, have you not followed every rule, every set expectation, lived your life according to their aspirations and dreams? Have you not done everything they wanted out of you, have you not been a vessel of their imaginations. When was the last time you made your own choices, your own decisions that would have led you to this particular scenario. When did you ever get the agency to make the choices?

But no, I agree, you should be punished. You deserve punishment.

You deserve punishment for being born, as the person you are, a woman, in the family you were born in. privileged enough to think and fight for yourself, but not enough to protect yourself. You deserve being punishment for not having cock and balls, having breasts, having long hair, being treated not like a man. That was your mistake, forever and always, not that you had a choice in it like every other thing, but that's what you're being punished for right now, and you deserve it.

If you think that deserves punishment.