Didn't write on Friday or Saturday, per the norm, Sunday would have been usually 12 posts per day on average, but it's sixteen, whatever. Things are improving, the days are getting longer, and stuff is good.
The only thing is, I'm uhhh lazy, the habits have broken and I've reverted into my age-old habit of zoning out from life and everything happening around me, constantly browsing the internet 24/7 and looking for reasons excuses to not to anything productive. The fire of motivation, the goal-driven coal-fired rocket that has taken me this far has been dying down because of everything happening, this just sucks so much.
And here we are, this is awful, so bad, terrible things these are. We hope to improve, I should work towards it.
The first step towards self-improvement is realizing the mistake, and I've done that. Second should be working towards a solution, and it is that I should write in the morning every morning, no matter what else is happening in my life. I can't be skipping days and weeks, I can't be lazying about all day long keeping all the writing tasks for the end of the day, waiting for the journal posts to day end.
I have to be a better person, that all that matters.
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