In various ways, I'm in the middle in terms of temperament, between my friends S and A. One is outgoing in a lets meet new people way, the other would rather just stay in with friends. One gets tired after a night or two of going out, the other seems to have unlimited energy. One is more intune with online apps and people, the other is less so, and would rather just live in the real world, etcetera. One heavily invests in even minor relationships to the point of it being a bad idea, the other refuses to put too much energy in places they might be doing better putting in, because they feel things will work out eventually etcetera.
The great thing about being in the middle is that you can pick-and-choose between the best. Why not go out with one group, and join the homebodies for sunrise parties. Why not meet people thisway, and that way, etc etc. If you can find a balance between the two sides, things are perfect.
The trouble with being in the middle is when the dynamic goes out of balance, you feel lost, confused sad disappointed and insecure about where things might be going. And looking at how things are, there might be a period of imbalance and instability coming up ahead, soon enough for me. I'm a little afraid about that, unclear where I want to go when one side of the equation is heavily favored. Gotta work on getting things in order first.
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