Sleep recovery, same ole' walk, productive work, catchup with friends and food conversations, complicated cooking simple eating, lazy writing, late to bed [Tue 12]

 I write this at quarter past five the next day, didn't get around on Tuesday because motivation was superlow. As my eap mentor tells me, it could be due to the sleep medication that's lowered my drive and focus. Either way, there is a clear improving pattern, there's no denying that.

Slept incredibly soundly, woke up to pee once and was able to go back to sleep without much effort. When I woke up I felt well-rested and full of energy. It was goodtimes. Got out of the bed at 8.30 maybe around 9, which is a compromise, but things will improve with the days. At least the sleep issues haven't caused a total collapse with everything as they did in the past.

Work was you know, the usual, nothing to exciting or interesting, nothing worth talking about. For lunch I had the same old couscous, third day in a row, so goddamn glad it was done with. Apparently couscous is just a form of wheat pasta, and not as I imagined, a different grain from the Middle East and north africa, probably said this in an earlier post as well. There's a few dishes where it would go well, but if I'm not diversifying nutritionally, I'm not particularly attached to it since rice is a much better alternative for everything, always. Gonna finish my jar of pearled couscous and look for other grains. Pearled barley and millets is what I"m eyeing.

After work I wasted a solid hour on the internet, not doing anything good or useful, there was some serious fun talks with the roommates. It's funny, we have a random assembly of roommates at the most random times, since we hear each other in the common room I come out of the room and get on with the talks yadda yadda, and go back to work. It's fun, thank god there are roommates, in these crazy times.

Around sixish went for the regular walk, up to winter hill, down to boston ave, and back hope. Shouldn't have drunk the several cups of iced kombucha as I did, that put a spanner on things. Bit of a bummer but ah well, whaddya gonna do.

The roommates had made pasta and meatballs for dinner, I decided to use up the remaining butternut squash because it could turn out to be a bit of a liability, with it occupying the fridge space. So I roasted it until death, covered in all the leftover spices my roommates used. Also put a large garlic, whole, covered in foil in the toaster oven. I should write a post about how awesome the new toaster oven is, and how I've never actually used the large oven since I used the 'roast' feature.

In the side, I cleaned up a can of black beans, dropped in some salt and a lot of oil, plus lemon juice and solid respectable glugs of tahini. Was just about to blend the crap out of it when I got a call from NP and talked to them for an hour.

So the idea was to be writing and meditating while the squash roasted, but I was too tired and hungry to consciously think about doing anything productive. So nothing got done.

We got caught up with what we've been doing ....N has been doing a lot of diy work around the house making new items, and apparently the gift I sent them, the collection of hafiz's poetry by landinsky was appreciated etcetera. I shared info on all the lazy food hacks I've been doing. Good catchup.

Spent another twenty minutes blending the dip really well, it tasted so good! Then i realized I wasn't hungry at all...so I uhh just used it as a dip for a taco or two, and that was my dinner. Did two rounds of meditation, tried so hard to make myself write, but couldn't. Got three posts out of the way somehow, and forced myself to sleep at 11.40-ish, leaving this post for today. Had two tablets of melatonin, took no sleeping pill. So sleepy, slept well. Going to go with two melatonins for a few more days, until I can go down to one and then zero.

Slept quite reasonably well, all things considered.