This is insane, so as you know, until the day before yesterday I was cranky annoyed and feeling not very well due to not getting enough sleep. I'd tried sleeping pills, melatonin, weed, and they worked, for a day or two, until they wore out and it didn't work anymore. Yesterday morning I woke up with what I thought would be a terrible headache, there wasn't enough sleep because I went to sleep at 2.30 (I napped the evening before, but that doesn't count) and got up probably way too early.
Yesterday was supposed to be a bad day....Because friday and work was tough as I screwed up a few small things and spent the entire day fixing it. Surprisingly, there was a lot of energy, motivation, confidence and the drive to do something. Anything. And yes, while it's true I didn't clean my room or work on my projects or even meditated, that's like normal...for a bad day, it was supposed to be awful. And it didn't feel that way, I felt light and eager and excited. So much so that I spent a long time watching tv.
And then something strange happened. No matter how much of the gigglies I smoked, I didn't feel it. Maybe the teeny weeny amount of weed I've been stealing off of my roommate's grinder is not so good, or perhaps I forgot how to smoke but that seems suspicious. Something was up, it's unclear what, between yesterday and the day before. Just as I was researching this, I looked it up online, and they say the hormone Pregnenolene causes weed tolerance, as well as makes you happy and high energy, good sleep etcetera. A hundred of those of 10mg dosage are like ten bucks on amazon. I would consider taking it, unprescribed, but now I'm thinking maybe I shouldn't be playing with my body so much. Also the warning on the product says somebody with enlarged prostrate shouldn't take it. And I don't want to play a doctor and all, but there's some good chance I'm going through that situation currently, so it would be unwise of me to get myself in a more complicated place, medically speaking.
And then the next morning, aka today, I woke up really high on energy and everything fixed, at 7am even though I slept at 12, which means if I can keep it for a week, I'm 'cured', or whatever. Or could it have been the high acidity of the kombucha I've been drinking that's changing my body chemistry? Or the microbiome? Or possibly the happiness hormones that got released when I was texting KP until 3 in the morning? So many possibilities!
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