Changing timetables

It's been exactly a week since i started going to UW pretty-much daily for yoga classes and as such. And also almost exactly as long since my walking schedule, work-commute schedule, writing schedule has been messed up.

Going to yoga classes for an hour a day at UW has revealed something that should have been obvious for a long time but because I never had any schedule it's taken me along time to realize: that I'm quite bad at adapting to change, specially in my schedule. As in, in the past I've done exceedingly well keeping things up when nothing changed, but when even a slight variable changed, all the other things have been messed around as I find myself in the doldrums. What do I prioritize? How do I focus, how do I motivate, omaigod everything is changing. Change feels overwhelming to me, specially one in my schedule, and that leads to me not being able to adapt my everyday habits to changing circumstances. It is why I can't keep my workouts etcetera when traveling, when I'm resetting my life every couple of months, why my life feels like a restart every time I go visit somewhere away from my homebase. Because to me, it does feel like a reset. It doesn't have to be. I'm not abandoning all circumstances, it's just slight modification to my schedule that I could easily adapt to if I had the courage, confidence, and the clarity of mind to be able to execute. But that's not been possible because this is a skill I've never tested myself on, a muscle group that's never been exercised before.

But now it's time. How do I keep working on my blog, my walks, my work routine, my website work, as well as the yoga stuff, that is the golden question. It's not about the time, I have enough hours in my day for all of that and beyond, much much more. It's a matter of priorities, confidence, and clarity.